You know, I already have a perfectly good college degree. Truly. I still have the diploma lying around someplace. Why did I think I needed another one? Right at this moment, I can't recall.
It seemed like such a good idea, and it was fun for a while. Fewer classes, no general ed., a chance to focus on the subjects I really enjoy. The problem is that eventually someone's going to expect me to write a thesis. (And when I say "eventually," I mean more like "pretty soon.") When I started the program, it seemed like such a comfortably distant prospect - you get a whole year before you even have to file your prospectus. How hard could this be?
Answer: hard. In spite of the fact that I only take two or three classes each term, the workload is still enough that I just can't find the time to work on my stupid thesis. I read book after book after book, and I write paper after paper after paper, and yet I have this horrible feeling that I'm not getting anywhere because I haven't written my thesis. At this point, I haven't looked at it for so long that I barely remember what my idea was. I don't suppose it was anything terribly important. I remember writing in my letter of intent that I wanted to "contribute" to the academic "conversation." Well, I've changed my mind. I have plumbed the depths of my brain, and concluded that I have nothing to contribute. Now what on earth am I going to tell my committee?
It's clear that no ordinary excuse will do on this occasion. After all, Blackwood, Descartes, and Victoria have already invested a certain amount of their valuable time in this project. [Full disclosure: my committee is awesome. They are lovely people and amazing scholars. I'm sure they would have made a scholar of me if anyone could have.] I really think the best thing would be for me to move to Tibet. I will regretfully inform the University that I have converted to Buddhism, and that in order to facilitate my spiritual journey, I and my family have decided to move to Tibet.
I anticipate that blogging will be even more irregular than usual after the move.
Ga ler bzhugs, slab grwa!